A Childhood Odyssey

A Childhood Odyssey: From the Tropics to the Unknown

In "A Childhood Odyssey," I embark on a narrative journey that traces the contours of an unconventional upbringing, a tapestry woven from the vibrant threads of diverse cultures, lands, and experiences. Born into the transient life of an army camp, my earliest memories are punctuated by the presence of a pet rat named Mickey, a harbinger of the unconventional life ahead. This chapter unfolds as a voyage from the familiar confines of an army existence to the mystical shores of Guernsey and then, dramatically, to the sun-drenched landscapes of Jamaica. This land seemed to teeter on the very edge of the world.

With its pulsating rhythms and lush vistas, Jamaica became the backdrop of my formative years, a place where American comics and books painted a vivid picture of a world beyond, fueling my imagination with tales of heroism and adventure. It was here, amidst the laughter and the music, the beaches and the vibrant street life, that I began to craft my identity, albeit under the mistaken belief that I was American, a misconception born from the stories that filled my days and nights.

Life in Jamaica was an idyllic blend of adventure and the stark realities of nature's law. My companions were a loyal dog named Lucky and a cat whose fate at the hands of a mongoose taught me the harsh lessons of life and death. It was a childhood marked by the freedom of endless summers, the thrill of art competitions won, and the simple joys of Sunday school stickers. Yet, it was also a time shadowed by the ominous presence of the Duppy Man, a spectral figure that haunted the lanes of my paradise.

The soundtrack of my Jamaican odyssey was "My Boy Lollipop," a melody that followed me across the island, a bittersweet refrain that underscored my days. But as is the nature of all idylls, the shadows lengthened, and paradise began to fray at the edges. Discovery of a severed hand, the injustice faced by my loyal dog, and the looming independence day signalled the end of an era. My family's departure was marked by a poignant encounter that hinted at the tumultuous changes awaiting the island and its people.

Our return to England was a journey from the familiar into the unknown, from the warmth of the Caribbean sun to the cold embrace of snow in Reading. It was a transition marked by loss—not just of a beloved pet and a way of life but of innocence. Yet, amidst the upheaval, we carried with us more than just physical reminders of our time in Jamaica; we bore the weight of a curse, a shadow that lingered long after our departure, a testament to the profound impact of our time in a land that had become part of our very souls.

"A Childhood Odyssey" is more than a recounting of events; it reflects the nature of home, identity, and the indelible mark of childhood experiences. It is a chapter that explores the complexity of memory, the pain of loss, and the enduring power of the human spirit to adapt, survive, and, ultimately, find a way back to the light.

“Baby, You’ve Got A Blockage”


"Baby, You've Got a Blockage": A Journey Through the Shadow

In the labyrinthine corridors of our existence, where our shadow intertwines with our light, lies the enigmatic chapter, "Baby, You've Got a Blockage". This is a voyage into the heart of darkness that resides within us all, a darkness that whispers tales of limitations, of unfulfilled dreams, and of paths untrodden due to the invisible chains that bind our spirit. Delve deep into the essence of what it means to encounter a blockage, a barrier erected not by our world but of our mind, a construct as real as the air we breathe yet as elusive as the wind.

"Baby, You've Got a Blockage," she said, words that echoed in the hidden caverns of my soul, kicking up the dust of complacency and the debris of self-doubt. These words, a mirror reflecting the myriad faces of my own negations, became the catalyst for a journey inward, a quest not for just for gold but of understanding the alchemy of the self. This chapter is a confession, a revelation, and perhaps, a redemption of sorts. It's an exploration of the negative mindset that had become my unwitting companion, a shadow cast long by the brilliance of punk rock's anarchic light, which, unknown to me, harbored gold beneath its dark veneer.

In the aftermath of punk rock's 'Year Zero', amidst the ruins of rebellion and the ashes of disillusionment, there I stood, a seeker, naked at the crossroads of existence, pondering the riddle of success and the enigma of failure. Was the secret to unlocking the treasures of the self, hidden in plain sight, or was it buried deep within, guarded by dragons of doubt in the fortress of fear? This chapter is a pilgrimage through the desert of despair and the ocean of oblivion, in search of the oasis of clarity.

Here, I confront the ghosts of Marxism, phantoms of political radicalism that sought to reduce the complexity of human existence to a never-ending debate and a pre-determined ideology. Yet, amidst this cacophony of convictions, I found myself adrift, a nomad in search of a mythic homeland that existed somewhere in me, beyond the boundaries of race, nationality, or creed. My journey was not outwards to a place on the map but inwards to a space within the heart, where true belonging lies.

This chapter is an odyssey through the weird and the wonderful, the inexplicable events that punctuated my life, like stars in the night sky, guiding me yet eluding my grasp. I learned to tread softly in the realm of magic, to guard the sacred from the profane, for the 'Magic Land' was not a destination but a state of being, a living dream, ensconced within the fortress of my mind, shielded from the siege of normality.

"Baby, You've Got a Blockage" is a testament to the power of introspection, a narrative that weaves through the fabric of the self, unraveling the threads of doubt and fear, to reveal the tapestry of potential that lies unseen within. It is a declaration of war against the internal adversaries that besiege us, and a hymn of victory for the battles fought and won in the silent chambers of the soul. Join me on this journey, for it is not just my story, but the story of every person that has ever dared to dream, to question, and to seek the gold that lies within.

A Childhood in Wales: Echoes from the Heart of the Valleys


A Childhood in Wales: Echoes from the Heart of the Valleys

In the next evocative chapter of "The Department Store of the Soul," Robert Courtney delves deep into the ancestral roots that have shaped his very being, presenting "A Childhood in Wales." This chapter is a tender homage to the past, a vivid tableau of life in the Welsh valleys, painted with the memories and stories passed down from his father, Dennis Courtney. Through these recollections, we are transported to Beddau, a village cradled in the heart of Mid-Glamorgan, where the tapestry of community, hard work, and an indomitable spirit of camaraderie is woven into the very fabric of daily life.

Dennis Courtney's narrative is a portal to a bygone era, where the simplicity of life was underscored by the richness of human connections. The chapter unfolds in the cozy warmth of George and Mary Ann Courtney's council house, a sanctuary of love and herbal lore. Grancher, as George was affectionately known, emerges as a figure of wisdom and benevolence, a herbalist whose remedies healed bodies and spirits alike, without the exchange of currency. His refusal to commodify his knowledge in a world where everything has a price speaks volumes about the values that once governed human relationships.

The vivid recounting of life in Beddau during the early 20th century, with its communal joys and sorrows, paints a picture of a community where every individual was a thread in the fabric of collective existence. The narrative is peppered with anecdotes that bring to life the traditions, the struggles, and the unbreakable bonds of family and friendship that defined the era. From the ritual of Sunday church bells to the shared labors and celebrations, every memory is a testament to a way of life that cherished togetherness over material wealth.

"A Childhood in Wales" is not just a chapter; it's a soulful journey into the heart of the Welsh valleys, where the echoes of the past still resonate with the power to inspire and move. Robert Courtney, through the lens of his father's memories, offers readers a glimpse into a world where the measure of a life was found in the depth of its connections, the strength of its love, and the wisdom passed down through generations.

This chapter stands as a poignant reminder of the enduring human spirit, a tribute to the ancestors whose lives and stories are the bedrock upon which the present is built. It's a call to remember and honor the simple, profound truths that our forebears lived by—truths that, in the hustle and bustle of modern life, we would do well to revisit and cherish. "A Childhood in Wales" is a precious piece of history, lovingly preserved in the basement of the Department Store of the Soul, in the Museum of Robert Courtney's Mind.

The Department Store of Your Soul

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The Department Store of the Soul is a dream, a place in your heart, an endless supply of all you need. It's bricks and mortar in some present future, a library of all the love you give, a window to a world you’ve always known exists. Imagine a welcoming café on a Parisian street, the sun warming your skin, the moon reflecting in your gin. Laughter echoes from the room upstairs, and a stranger's look of recognition meets you in the street. In the back of your mind, the siren's song whispers, “Come to me, come to me, we’re all waiting for you,” daring you into an experience beyond the ordinary, into the heart of all that is and can be.
It's the
Department Store of Your Soul
It doesn't matter if you're
Young or old
It doesn't care about
The colour of your skin
Who you love or
How you feel within
You are the original thing
You are the original thing
You are the original thing
You are, you are, you are

You've walked inside
A million times before
Your touch has left a
Patina on the door
You've lived and loved and
Laughed and cried here
Many times before
Because
You are the original thing
You are the original thing
You are the original thing
You are, you are, you are
Building a house of love
Building a house of love
Building a house of love
Where you're always in love
And never grow old


It's the
Department Store of Your Soul
It doesn't matter if you're
Young or old
It doesn't care about
The colour of your skin
Who you love or
How you feel within
Because
You are the original thing
You are the original thing
You are the original thing
You are, you are, you are
Building a house of love
Building a house of love
Building a house of love
Where you're always in love
And never grow old

Lyrics to The Department Store of the Soul by Robert Courtney

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